okay so wassap boggie woggie been a long time since..errr i dont count entry..again im having such a shitty day and hating enjoyment at this hour..ehem2...thats is ma lover..ma husband ..ma brat..ma thugs and ma s""...yope..2 years already..time running so fast and i can see a future with ma twins holding ma hand and him..aha! just kiddy
so ma wordless for today is "love can be so much divine"
yupp i love you..and its seems like im death without it..were far away..away from words and act..
i rarely wrote an nicely entry no harshing love and romance time but when it comes to this i felt like..= +'
cut the craps..today pza felt hurting much..si dia seems jauhkan diri dari pza..(uh ye ker tu?)..yelah,..masuk hari ni ja pza kena tinggal berabis..this and that..alasan yang pza trima bila si dia nak go out at NIGHT..night?..kenapa lah ada malam?..yuhh pening kepala begini..kalau dulu..si dia minta permission main futsal pukul 8 to 9 malam but kali ni lagi sandi wooo pukul 10 to 12 kot..(cuba bagi alasan kukuh kenapa huby mau kuar)..he tell me that "cyg huby kepingin mau main badminton"..yuhh waaa sepalah bha xkasian bila si dia mengeluh begitu..if only ima be queen control ..no..im not queen control..let him fly free..tapi pza jugak yang kasian last2..lagi 3 hari mau jumpa mcam2 dugaan tadi lagi sandi..si dia text me he manage to answer all that kind of question they were given in class and said that his lecterer puji dia..i call her tapi macm sampah kena layan..maybe dia lapar tapi ..(no fair la bro!)..3 days before we had a big fight and almost clash for it..but something were still missing and i felt empety even after were good then..i dont know what has gotten into mind lately
* this things shitting on ma nerves and i cant get rid out of ma brain so many times i get to sleep lately..
* i miss you too much
banyak lagi and i cant describe it all..kadang2 love can make us go crazy,dead and live were meaningfull..and so goes here..i had a beatifull life with si dia and sometimes i dont..kadang2 si dia were to kongkong me dan buatkan i cant breath..tapi itulah si dia..tapi kenapa bila time pza need si dia..si dia macam tak peduli me..?..so hurt and so long weve been couple and he still dont even know who am i?..watta
n yeah..sometimes i do feel alone and jeles with him..and yes i admit that,..i cant live without him..tapi saya kena palau again ..yuhh kenapa si dia tak reti nak faham perasaan orang ni..tak kesah la bila si dia tak tahu nak surprising me with all kind of material and blah blah blah..tapi perasaan ni.."mana boleh wat palau"..tapi ni lah rasa cinta sebenarnya..rasa sakit hati..tidak terpedulikan dan tidak memahami..kalau menyanyangi tu boleh lagi tapi ..langsung tak faham erti "peduli" dan erti "memahami"..yalah pza cuba la ni fahami isi hati si dia..benarkan si dia mencuba apa seja except drugs and smoke (i hate that totally is like i wanna punch it to his face)tapi errr neverminda la..i just want to make him smile..and proud of me..pza tak mahu sekat kebebasan si dia..tak mahu paksa si dia lakukan something yang bukan he interst with..pza sayang dia and thats why pza have to let him go..and that were the only way he comes to me..even have to take a lot of time and effort but actually its kinda work!..
and thats the meaning of love for me..i just love him too much and i cant force him..
huby if you seen this..
let me know that you love me so much..
let me hear you whisper the love to me..
let me listen to your words about me..
let me know that you need me..
even though ..
i let you go....
credit to:mohd amir iskandar bin mohd hamzah