i got a lot of free time..and i addict to this...so i want to share with you guys..what in ma heart after all i hide it..eheks..sound silly but seriously me take a lot of time to express it..ever love and miss somebody..the day that you missing them was the day that you losing them..pain right??..im feelin the same way ever..but then,ill find some light to bring me back to reality..this is ma real story ..no copycat from a lover book nor twilight storyteller..
the story began with life me that happen 3 years a go..too long and still evergreen in ma deep soul..the day that i diddent know how to express the inner beauty inside..im not like the other gurl who can walk out proud with they beauty and talking insane and like no one cares..thats why ima rebel back then..i just wanna be somebody that i like..imitating was the only way i think for that time to show up ...ima free free hair once..im loafing with the notorius gangster and enjoying time was the only thing that comin up in ma mind..the teenage rebellious was exciting..ima forcing to do something that i hate much eventhough its a good way to practise it..i dont care and i dont mind...and one day i meet a boy..a boy that took ma heart for the first time..hes 2 years older than me..no wonder ill be act too matured that ma age suppose to be...hes good looking,everybody try to win over him..luckily i got him in ma grip..i was eager to show in public how proud i am to have someone handsome like him walk beside me and put his smile on his face..not every single day was the bright sunshine in our life...ima hater of a man actually....i got dumped on ma every relationship now im having a relation with him..ima player..so bad i was in that years...karma has it back on me..he paid back..he cheat on me too when the time that i put ma trust on him.."what goes around comes around"..i accept the karma..but i cant accept the way he did on me..for whole 7 months i be stray hollow waiting him to come back ..still got no reply,still got no news about him...hes an army...reserve army....ill be like..
i try to win him back..haha no luck that time..he with other gurl there..im in kk that time and he in tawau thus, i give up on tryin ..actually he did not do much thing on me..even though were already one years relation hold..and that anniversary was the last ..and i aint hold it back..so i try to open ma heart with some other man this time..oughh..ima ex-student in likas you know..and in likas..actually it brings a lot of sweet memories in ma life..the biggest impact is im in veil right now..the light has upon me to wear tudung..i start to pray..start to repent..im takin a rehab...ever since i broke up with him..i no longer fall into love in anybody..serious..im hard to get attract by a men..
than one bright and shinefull day in school..(im get into boarding school in likas)..ma besitie introduce sombody..she say that the guy(ma boyfiee now) had a crush on me ..we get to know by latest technology communication.."Facebook"...that time..im try to ignore him..but he keep asking amy(ma bestie)on ma respond towards him..we're same age..and the first time i get into same age thing ..ahah
okayy..this is ma boy..generous and gentleman..dong_gigs..i like to play trick with him everyday...come on heal for ma love....the first time i look at him..i was..man!`...i like that guy....no one ever asking us whos the first person that express love guys?/ ehem2..(bearlah rahsia huuuu)....
now im start to realize..whose the right person you gived love..let us think carefully,...find a men that treat you the most,loving you,care about you and need you every single time...not taking you for granted..love is beautifull.and perfect gift from God..use it wisely,nicely and train it greatfully ...the more you put trust on a men,the more you hurt in the other time..ima 2o..ima dedicatied this to a gurl who think they love best in teenage ..not every men you make couples in teenage day were your men till the end..and so am i..
and now i just pray for ma love..that he never turns back..our journey is way too more adventourous and more complicated "welcome to matured love buddy:..pal said it to me..so guys not much i can tell..not much i can share..just a feelin that i love to share with you all..now im glad this wasnt a movie screen teller but i glad to express it..