..bayang bayang...

hari ni mood ada kurang baik skit..i dont know why and i dont even know when...banyak problem melanda..i gase the one of my cabaran i gase so...alpa dengan Pencipta..mcm ni lah...sometimes i do scared with ma own shadow...of what who i become..and  apa akan jadi next year or paling cepat pun next week...

pza tak percaya on horoscope apa2 ni..just read and letak in mind..but so rarely to practise it well..bnyak bad luck kunun bilangny..gain money pun kurang..use money wisely..

but the truth is..i miss ma hometown a lot..back to 2 or 3 years before..i still in home..cooking for momy and others...watching tv with no worries and happily and quarreling with ma lil sis...but that was before im 21...im 21 already and got a burden task right now..got no perfect job..no studying life...no perfect money..no everything..then..ma guy ask me for a marry things...its just that..i dont have anything to be proud on..i speak no wisely..immature...and so unperfect life i had right now...

so this is me for this new year began..

sometimes i do hate for what everybody acvhieves..hating on someone guilty its doesnt make any sense...daaa..im hating for nothing...for quick real i owes looken up for something best that she have i wana have..poor me..poor her..

please forgive me for everything ive done..although you not gona read this and hear what i say...im the one who fault..im sory a lot for making you disatisfy on me...im sory seriously i like you a lot..and with love for sure..but i aint gona talk to you anymore..not for this time..not untill you gonna talk to me first..

dear ms.wrong..thanks for giving me space to talk to laughing and to say bad word towards you..you make me feel grateful to have such person like you ..

sincerely,

faizah nurdin..

yeah..crita yang penuh dengan perasaan dan ikhlas...wish kalau dia masi hidup lagi..wish kalau dia masih ingatkan pza..tolong pastikan yang dia pun menyanyangi pza apa adany..